Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Tikoy meets Clan B


A neighbor who studies in UIC became a very good friend of mine. He was Anots, a quiet, serious, wrestling fanatic, underground and hardcore type of person. He was a childhood acquaintance who became so close to me 3 years ago, hope 'till now. He shared a lot his college days on me. He even introduced his friends to me that time. Clan B, that was how he named his group. I admit that partly, I became insecure to him for some reasons. He was in school that time while I was just at home doing nothing, He had friends that he could go with everytime he wanted to, He had stuffs I wished to have, most of all he was all I wanted to be (huhuhu). As I was going with him that time I met some of his friends who became close to me too. I met Alma, the mother figure, who never loses of great ideas. Grace, the cute girlfriend of Raphael.Asvy, I don't know what to say(...hehehe).Liezel, my crush (psssssst).Lorelie, who had crush to Ace.Didoy, Grace X. Raphael, Grace present boyfriend. Kevin, the Anti Christ.Gerald, I like his voice. Archie, the rapper. Ace and Steivene, campus crushes.And Mags, the chubby gigantic one. Everybody was so good and nice to me. But among of them, I was closer to Steivene, Grace and Alma. There was a time that I thought Clan B was just riding on me ' coz I was Anots friend. I even tried to avoid them 'coz sometimes I tend to debase myself. I kept on bearing to my mind that we' re not on same levels, that they're superiors and I'm nobody but a nuisance joiner who kept on accompanying them shamelessly (huhuhu). I told Anots about my doubts regarding his friends that's why he was frowning, asking me of how I could think of something like that when they showed nothing but kindness on me. So, I apologized. But still, those thoughts lingered and inculcated on me. The days that I was socializing with Clan B were just a pretend. Pretension, in a sense that I was super- duper ok, that I felt no gap between us and I was one of the clan but definitely, I wasn't.Nonetheless, the only real those times was me as a friend to them. Now, I would say that no more gaps , no more pretensions, no more awkwardness etc. I feel with Clan B. They taught me a lot of virtue in life, and one of it is that friendship doesn't require same level of financial stability and educational equality. What matters most is pure combination of you and me, regardless of your differences. I realized all of these as I met Clan B.